Jimmy Dennis For All That I Missed (For: F. & K.) By Jimmy Dennis   Long ago, I should have gone insane just up and lost my mind, in this hellish nightmare. Layer upon layer time and time again. I've missed so much of my daughters' lives.   My tears run dry liken to the sand of an hourglass. I missed first footsteps and first word spoken first days of school and first dates first of my little girls blooming into women.   Their Mom instilled morals and values but could not be Papa and allow them to be Daddy's girls.., I miss...   Even in this hellish nightmare I still dream with hope and prayer. To hear them laugh to sit around our dinner table for them to come to me when needing advice to take them shopping until they drop I hope.., I wish.., I pray!     JIMMY AND HIS MOTHER, MAY 2005 Dear Mom. . . At first it was strange! To see you face to face. To hold you in my arms. . . to be held by you. Oh Momma, how I have missed you. I had to fight back tears, in the hope of staying strong -- for you. After all the years of being separated I'm still your Baby. . .Momma's son. --Jimmy Dennis Note from Jimmy written May 6, 2005:  The thoughts here were expressed soon after my first contact visit with my mother in over a decade.  It was a visit full of both joy and pain.  Joy to see her and pain of not knowing the next time we shall be.   On Stage by Jimmy Dennis Upon a stage of unrighteousness they would have you believe my spirit is cloaked in black. . . Many a times I awake sunrise or the mid of night screaming, yelling. . .in many of tears they flow over a silent waterfall. . . Who hears? Who feels my pain? Who can stop the tears? Drape me in soft white silk to reflect my true spirit? My single wish! That tomorrow wasn't tomorrow here in this Death Row cell all alone.   NOT THE WAY IT SEEMS by Hope Dennis (Jimmy's sister) So it seems your life is over And there's no hope in tomorrow When you look into your future All you see is pain and sorrow It may seem as though Your so-called friends Have turned their backs on you But those who matter most Will remain when this all ends Though your dreams Seem to be falling apart No one can destroy the talent and love God put into your heart So lift up your head And stand still Just remember nothing can happen Unless it's God's will   A Soul So Strong  by Sarah Gau, Dedicated to Jimmy in 2005 I look at you- see the pain and the struggle through your eyes deep in your Soul. So Strong almost like a machine always able to function no matter what problem comes in between.  Yet I see you are so sensitive and hurt -Still hoping- After all those thunderstorms destroying all you ever had after false friends after lost love after devastated dreams after all- You survive.  You stand through situations most people wouldn`t have lived through. You keep fighting through times most people would have given up. You keep going On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on On on on on on without an “and”.  I wonder how can you do this? It almost seems like no human being could be able to go through this unless they are a robot without emotions But you can! And yet you are so human full of emotions maybe that is what keeps you fighting; It`s your heavenly heart, your spirited Soul, your need for justified Justice.  Maybe God has chosen you to be in that position in order to prove to the world that the death penalty is wrong. He has chosen you because no one else would have been able to stay so strong and to fight without going crazy. Tell me...... How did you do that?